The oppression of my family is like a mountain that makes me breathless.

Stick to your own ideas, or you will pay for your mistakes for decades to come. Isn't it more pathetic? You should stick to your stand and principles, or you will be easily influenced by the surrounding environment and atmosphere, such as the pressure from your family. If you are not at fault, some things can be ignored. But it's actually quite difficult. You may need to be alone and figure out what you really want. Any choice you make will cost you, so it is more important to respect your inner voice.