Huangfanwai

"Teacher Lin, today is my birthday. Can I not write?" The child in front of him raised his tender little face and asked innocently.

He bent down with a smile and looked into his clear eyes. "Ok, but Xiaoyu must get full marks in the exam tomorrow."

"Well, definitely!" The child opened his mouth with two front teeth missing and waved his chubby little hands. "Goodbye, Miss Lin!" "

Smiling at the little figure leaving the classroom, Lin Luoning packed her textbooks, checked the doors and windows again, and turned out of the campus after confirming that everything was correct.

After school, the children have rushed out and rushed home to watch cartoons before dinner.

At this time, the campus is empty and bright, and the light of the sunset falls lightly on the body, sprinkling a layer of gold, with a slight glare and soft warmth.

In this quiet town, the afternoon air is also fresh and comfortable.

After returning to his hometown, he thought he would be free for a while, but he was invited by the primary school principal to be a Chinese teacher at his alma mater.

At first, he had some doubts about his ability. After all, he didn't have any teaching experience, but after a long time, seeing the smiling faces of those children, his hesitation was unconsciously dispelled.

They are the simplest angels. Isn't that what they are looking for?

"Teacher Lin!" The kind old janitor poked his head out of the guard room. "Go home?"

"Yes ..." Lin Luoning smiled at him and stopped. "What's wrong, Chen Bo?"

"It's okay that's ok, see you always let the students go last, there are not many serious and responsible teachers like you these days ..."

"I just hope they have a stronger grasp." Lin Luoning some shy smile, "Chen Bo also want to go home ..."

"Yes, go back and drink the soup cooked by the old woman ..." Chen Boxiao laughed twice, and the wrinkles on his face gathered together.

Lin Luoning can't help but envy that a plain life can be so delicious. It will take decades of love to boil more and more soup of life.

"Oh, I almost forgot ..." Chen Bo drew her head back and rummaged through the table as if looking for something. After a long time, he looked up and waved. "Your letter!"

Lin Luoning slightly one leng, and then took it with a smile. "Thank you."

He put the thin piece of paper into his backpack without looking at the name of the sender.

Chen Bo narrowed his eyes and smiled happily. "Your friend has a good relationship with you. Three letters a week, and I haven't stopped for months ... "

He smiled gently and didn't answer.

It's a little sultry with some summer heat, and the old man can be seen holding a small stool in the shade of the tree in the street.

Teenagers who are not afraid of sweating are playing football in full swing, and the grass on the campus playground is full of youthful breath.

Lin Luoning stood by the side of the road and watched for a while. It was getting dark before she suddenly realized and came home.

"Let's drink something to relieve the heat ..." Mother Lin served a bowl of mung bean soup with concern and wiped her hands with an apron. "Why is it so late today?"

After a pause in the hand holding the porcelain bowl, he smiled slightly. "Learning for too long didn't notice the time ..."

"Xiao Ning, mom knows that you are kind and responsible, but you should also take good care of your body first ..."

Seeing her mother's worried eyes, Lin Luoning relented and took her hand and sat down. "Mom, don't worry, I know how to take care of myself."

"If you can take care of yourself, you won't come back silently ... in fact, you can see that you are unhappy without telling your mother ..."

How can I be happy? Lin Luoning smiled and encouraged, "Isn't the child the happiest around his parents? And I'm working well now, and I have no worries at all. I am already very satisfied. "

"Don't worry about the children ..." Fu Lin came out of the bedroom with a teacup and picked up the newspaper on the sofa. "Xiao Ning has a stable temper and has his own judgment."

"I'm worried about him ..." Mother Lin was unconvinced, then looked at Lin Luoning and smiled shyly.

After dinner, I closed the door, took out my unfinished homework from my backpack and imagined those clumsy but carefully written words. Lin Luoning couldn't help laughing.

Something slipped from the exercise book and fell to the ground with a bang. He froze for a moment and bent down to pick up the white envelope.

"Luoning, how have you been recently? Did those little guys make you angry? Nowadays, children are more and more naughty, unlike when we were young. But with your personality, you will handle it well and be the favorite teacher of students ... "

"ceausescu business is very stable now, Sarah that woman asked me all day where have you been, when will you come back. Why didn't I find her so bothersome before ... "

A thousand words are just daily chores, but it is precisely because of this that he can read every letter without burden.

He still remembers that when he received the first letter, he hesitated for a long time before deciding to open it. I told myself in my heart that as long as a word about feelings appeared, I would never read it again.

It is enough to experience a relationship without a good result. He doesn't want to do the same thing again.

Surprisingly, the man did not push himself.

The weather, colleagues, and even what you see and hear in the street are all topics on stationery, but what you don't mention is feelings.

Can you think ... is he mature?

Lin Luoning closed his eyes and imagined a person writing with a black charcoal pen.

Even if there was no response from him, Qi Hao sent one letter after another persistently, as if to remind himself not to forget his existence.

Looking at the white envelope and unchanged business stationery, Lin Luoning opened the drawer and added another layer to the height of the pile of white.

"Xiao Lin, I'm still busy during lunch break. Why don't you go to lunch early? " The teachers in the office came out together and shouted.

"To complete these tasks ..." Lin Luoning smiled at them and continued to focus on his notebook.

Suddenly a fragrance came. I thought it was the teacher who ordered takeout, but the lunch box was on my desk.

He looked up doubtfully, and in front of him was Gao Pingting, an art teacher of the same grade.

"Guess you didn't eat, so I bought some back ..." The female teacher with ear-length short hair looked at him tenderly. "Eating regularly is good for your health ..."

"Thank you ..." Lin Luoning hesitated for a moment, then smiled and took out his wallet from his pocket. "How much is it?"

"Don't be so polite, it's just a meal ... I'll help Miss Lin buy rice every day if necessary, and it's not too late when the time comes ..." Gao Pingting smiled and turned to sit back at her desk.

When did you become someone who needs to be taken care of? Lin Luoning took a long time to return to absolute being, but she smiled.

As the days passed, a letter received every two days has been embedded in his life like food, clothing, housing and transportation. Even if he doesn't want to, the habit is formed invisibly. Lin Luoning suddenly discovered that habit may be the most terrible thing in the world.

Opening the new letter, the newspaper, as always, said something interesting or gossip. Only in the end, he saw a strange but familiar name.

"I met Xu Xi a few days ago, but I never expected that he would change ..."

A few words are enough to make a calm heart ripple.

Is their meeting a coincidence or the result of pursuit? What did they say when they met? Really ... back together?

A series of questions flooded into my mind, and Lin Luoning first discovered why Qi Hao's letter was so short.

After a moment of disappointment, he giggled.

My curiosity is a little too strong. These are other people's business, aren't they?

The regular letters suddenly stopped unexpectedly.

The only connection was cut off and disappeared without a trace. It seems that my previous letter was just a dream of my own. When I woke up, I couldn't even see the ashes

Lin Luoning is very grateful to Xu Xi.

He made Qi Hao finally understand what to have and what to give up.

Fortunately, it is now.

Time is not long, and I should be able to quit the habit of receiving letters. And the rest, really nothing. All the memories stay at the moment of leaving, and in the constant killing, the memories of the past also fall down one by one.

It turns out that there really is "selective amnesia".

Late at night, I heard my parents whispering in the living room.

"Xiao Ning has been silent for a lot these days ... I really don't know what's wrong with this child ..."

"He wants to say, don't ask ..."

"But let him continue like this without asking. What should I do if he becomes that' depression'? "

"Where there is so exaggerated, you don't entertain foolish ideas ..."

……

Listening to his parents return to his room, he opened the curtains and looked out the window at the night.

He hardly remembers.

He has been sleeping very lightly since he came back, but no matter how tired he is, he can't sleep well. I used to talk very little, but now it's getting quieter and quieter.

He has anticipated everything, because what he wants to give up is the habit he has developed for eight years.

He knew that it was only the initial discomfort, and when he completely forgot, that was the peace he really wanted.

Forget the city, forget the love, forget the memories, forget him.

During the lunch break, Lin Luoning finally remembered to eat on time. Looking at Gao Pingting's cheerful smile, he couldn't help showing a grateful smile.

After lunch, he began to browse the rental information in the newspaper. If you can, you might as well move out He doesn't want his parents to worry about himself, and he doesn't want his lonely side to be noticed.

"Is Teacher Lin looking for a house?" I don't know when Gao Pingting has stood beside her with a glass of water and looked down at the newspaper.

"Is considering ..."

"In that case, I haven't found a roommate in the apartment I rented ..."

It is always inconvenient to share a room with a girl. Lin Luoning interrupted her apologetically. "Sorry, I haven't decided yet ..."

Gao Pingting paused and turned to smile: "Let's wait until Teacher Lin thinks it over."

The bell rang at the right time and nodded slightly at her. Lin Luoning picked up the textbook and walked to the classroom.

It's not that he doesn't know the girl's affection for himself, but he has experienced too much and has lost the qualification to love a girl, let alone have his own family.

After school, he stood at the door for a long time, and finally brewed a smiling face, pushed the door open and went in. "Dad, mom, I'm back ..."

However, the man sitting on the sofa made his smile freeze instantly.

The boy with beautiful dimples stood up with a smile. "Long time no see."

Mother Lin is peeling an orange and handing it to the boy. When she saw him coming back, she pulled him over. "Xiao Ning, your former classmates came to see you ... and bought all these things. It's really expensive ... "

Lin Luoning nodded gently, but didn't know what to say. Or Xu Xixian spoke. "Why don't we go out for a walk?"

Although just familiar with, mother Lin is obviously a little loathe to give up. "Then you can come back for dinner later, and aunt will make you a famous braise in soy sauce steak ..."

Xu Xi smiled and took her hand. "I'm afraid I can't enjoy it today. I will definitely come up next time and try my aunt's cooking. " A pure and sincere smile warms people's hearts.

Qi Hao was right. Xu Xiguo has not changed.

As before, people can't help but turn their eyes and attention to him.

The long river bank is lined with soft reeds, which is warm and light wheat color from a distance. Lin Luoning never thought that he would go home with Xu Xi.

Even in college, they were only nodding acquaintances, and what they said in four years was only a few words. Maybe because he is the only one who knows everything between him and Qi Hao, he may be shy at first, but then he can't speak.

Qi Hao said in the letter that they met again, so does Xu Xi know everything about himself and Qi Hao?

It seems that he and himself just changed places around the same person, but the difference is that that person loves him.

"The environment here is really good, even the air is so fresh ..." Xu Xi closed his eyes, took a deep breath and smiled like a child.

Lin Luoning smiled slightly. "If you like, I can show you around ..."

"I'd love to ... but I planned my trip before the holiday, and even coming here was unplanned ..." Xu Xi looked back from a distance and smiled at him. "In fact, you don't want to see me, do you?"

Let the other party know in one sentence.

Lin Luoning met his eyes and smiled: "I don't think I will not welcome my present friends because of the past."

In the opposite eyes, suddenly there is a tacit understanding that does not need to be explained. Xu Xi stopped and leaned against the stone fence on the river bank. "Let's get this straight. The purpose of my coming here is entrusted by people ... "

Although he had guessed his intention, Lin Luoning's heart jumped suddenly when he heard it with his own ears.

"I don't want to in my heart, that guy is so self from beginning to end, thinking that the whole earth revolves around him. But after careful consideration, I also want to take some responsibility ... "Xu Xi playfully pursed her lips. "I don't want to say anything nice for him, I just want to say what I think ..."

Smiling gratefully at him, Lin Luoning shook his head gently. "Since you have made a choice, you will not give yourself a chance to turn back."

"Do you want to know ... why did I break up with him?" Xu Xi cocked his head and two dimples appeared on his face.

Lin Luoning one leng, surprised expression on her face.

"I never thought I would like a man until I met him in high school. Hey, we both have feelings for each other. "

"In the beginning, it was really like being in love. We even made an appointment to be admitted to the same university ... But as time goes by, quarreling is much sweeter than ... "Xu Xi shrugged helplessly. "But this is no way. Who told us that both of us are so stubborn, and no one will give in when we encounter problems ... and I gradually found that the relationship between us is not love at all ... "

Lin Luoning in the mind a shock, "what? Anyway, Qi Hao is sincere to you ... "

Xu Xi smiled and shook his head. "I thought so at first, but we are together, but we are just together. Even he didn't realize that he had something on his mind and never told me, but he would tell you ... "

Lin Luoning couldn't help but be surprised and quickly explained: "He and I were just friends at that time ..."

"I know ..." Xu Xi gave him a comforting look, "but he and I are so strange that we can't even compare with our friends ... when we broke up, he only said one word" good ". In fact, I know that he is puzzled, angry and sad, but he doesn't even want to show such emotions in front of me, and he doesn't ask why, and he doesn't say it to keep ... "

"Love needs frankness and painstaking efforts, and none of us has paid more ..." Xu Xi looked up and smiled at him. "It's a pity that JiHao didn't notice for so many years. He doesn't love me, but he misses and regrets his first love ... "

"Luoning, the person he loves is actually you."

All the scenery in front of me is fixed in my eyes, and all the pictures in my memory are stagnant.

Lin Luoning stood there quietly waiting for a while, only Xu Xi's voice continued.

"When I was in college, I thought you two would be together in the future, because only when I faced you, he was the real him. And you tolerate him to the extreme. It's just that I didn't expect that you have experienced so much between you ... "

"I'm not saying this to change your mind, but only you know what true happiness is. Sometimes it is worthwhile to give up everything for happiness. "

"Thank you ..." Lin Luoning looked at the beautiful boy in front of her and suddenly felt that she had not changed. In addition to that kind of pure naughty, he will inadvertently reveal a gentle and cautious smile. "If Qi Hao doesn't agree to break up easily, will you ... give him a chance?"

"I don't know, maybe it will be more and more inappropriate to get along with each other in the future, and it is also possible to separate again ..." Xu Xi smiled and brushed the hair blown by the wind from his forehead. "If it is not irreversible, then don't give up easily, as long as you choose the right person."

Far away, I saw a familiar figure standing at the end of the dike, but it seemed like a lifetime ago.

Xu Xi patted him on the shoulder as if he were relieved. "This decision depends on yourself. I can finally enjoy my holiday ... "

The man came firmly step by step, and under the blue sky, the blurred face gradually became clear.

The sun was dazzling, and Lin Luoning seemed to see him walk up to him and show his favorite smile, just like when they first met.

Before he could speak, Lin Luoning slowly turned away.

Far away from the boy, there was a tall figure in a trench coat. Two people are close enough to hold hands.

Choosing the right person ... Is it really that simple?

As the hot air approached behind him, he slowly closed his eyes.

(End)

The author's words:

Irretrievable things can have a reason to be forgiven. I think this story may disappoint many parents who want to keep up with Hao's painful or sweet process.

I tried, but I don't know why I can't continue that natural plot at present, but the ending is still worth looking forward to.

So, I just wrote my feelings about passers-by, that's all.

The temperature outside the meal of the traveler's boss

The first time I met him was a famous gay man in new york.

Under the ambiguous light, it seems that everyone is hidden in the darkness, and only that person is clear. Black hair, the ends of which are slightly curled around the white neck. The thin side face is obviously a youthful face, but it has a little youthful cleanliness. A fitted black coat is the simplest style, but suddenly it feels a bit mysterious. In the endless flashing light, tenderness and coldness, two completely different temperament, flashed alternately on him with the change of color tone. I held the glass in my hand for a long time, but I never looked up and looked around.

Psychological suddenly have a little bit of interest, eyes tightly gripped the figure, Wen Yi coldly went straight over. "Sorry, there are already people here." As he sat down, he heard the man say this sentence in English. The soft voice is not big, but it is a faint tone of refusing people away, just like the faint expression on her face. "I don't mind." Answering in Chinese, he saw the man frowning slightly.

Sitting so close, you can observe more carefully. Compared with those foreigners with delicate faces and distinct lines, the looks of people in front of them are definitely not amazing. Just don't know why, just a light and peaceful face, but there is a charming temptation, like not belonging to this ambiguous environment, quietly staying alone in your own world.

Wen Yi coldly narrowed his eyes and smiled in his mind. I haven't felt this urge for a long time, but I still want to satisfy myself. He wants to break into his world.

Only one night later, we met again. Such dramatic development even surprised him. Originally, I was going to find someone to check my identity after I finished this business, but now even this step is saved. Lin Luoning, assistant to the general manager of Qi Group. The man hovering in his mind just now is sitting diagonally opposite to himself, silently participating in the cooperation of Qi Hewen. Without the rendering of lighting and atmosphere, his own clean temperament is naturally revealed, but he always browses files with his head down, and his thin body is obviously stiff.

Knowing Dolby's eyes, Wen Yi-Han deepened his pursuit of prey. It's just that everything goes on in silence between each other, and others don't notice anything wrong. Even the seemingly clever Qi family is less. The relationship between the boss and his subordinates is really a good cover-up. Just lovers, but not necessarily lovers. I don't think anyone else took Lin Luoning to that occasion except him. And leaving such a person there with a belly, I don't know if he is at ease or doesn't care at all. In the bar, if it weren't for Lin Luoning's uneasiness when she retired, she might still believe that they were together. Looking for a person's figure anxiously, revealing a fragile expression that I have never noticed. Wen Hanyi is sure that he didn't tell the man what happened last night. Besides, it won't happen again.

I never wanted to pursue such a thing. Power and money, with their own abilities and means, can be easily obtained without much thought. Ruthless, calculating a bottomless pit. Wen Yi smiled coldly at the thought of these more or less comments. Get as much profit as possible in your own way. How important are other people's opinions? Just some jealous clowns yelling around. He never pays attention and never cares.

The only thing worth caring about is just one thing-follow your heart. He never goes against his will, he must do what he decides. Conquering yourself constantly is the greatest challenge and fun in life, isn't it? Now, Wen suddenly found that a new pleasure appeared in front of him. I'm not entirely sure about the result. Interesting.

When he returned to China by expanding his business, only he knew that selfishness was far greater than business. Although I am not blind, I can't help laughing at myself when I think of those little boys who chase people all over the world. Meet again, Lin Luoning eyes flashed a trace of fear, but soon calmed down and turned to leave. Wen Yi cold hook up corners of the mouth smile, not to chase. He doesn't care about the result, he likes chasing.

One day, two days, one month, two months. Chase but don't pester, but don't care much. From turning a blind eye from the beginning to having dinner together now, Wen certainly won't think that the other party has accepted him. This is just a helpless perfunctory. A man's attitude is always as dull as a glass of water, but he can't lift a ripple. But he knew that Lin Luoning did not abandon him.

From the man's eyes, he can see confusion, helplessness, escape and a little hesitation. Not sure? I'm not sure what I mean to him, and I'm not sure about the invisible future. Wen feels that he is also changing. He began to speculate on Lin Luoning's thoughts and even unconsciously imagined each other's feelings. He ridiculously feels that he knows more and more about this person, but the other person knows nothing.

He has seen Lin Luoning with Qi Hao. That's the other side he has never seen before. Gentle and peaceful. Just a smile can make people feel warm. However, he also likes to be vigilant in front of himself. Stubborn and stubborn, trying to cover up inner panic and shake with calm. Perhaps no one has seen it, and no one knows that he also has such a personality. Perhaps only oneself can understand his real name, and he can show it in front of himself. So he constantly angered him with ridicule, watching his frown, anger and helpless expression. Lin Luoning occasionally retorts, and a few words can prevail.

"Tomorrow, I will officially start pursuing you." Say this sentence, and sure enough, see each other's surprised expression. Maybe the other party doesn't believe it, but Wen Yi is indifferent, and this sentence is not a joke.

Before, he never wanted to pursue a stable relationship, and even the word "emotion" did not exist deliberately. The principle he pursues has always been "do whatever you want". Come if you agree, or leave if you don't agree. Nothing is immutable, let alone people's hearts. But now, his heart tells him that he wants to develop a different relationship with that person. Although he doesn't know the future, he wants to master the present.

"When we are together, we take what we need, and separation will not cause trouble to each other. Don't worry about what will happen in the future, just enjoy the present. This is the outlook on life that should be there. " When he said this, he knew that Lin Luoning disagreed. They are two very different people. One is that people around you come and go in a hurry and don't even remember their names and looks; And the other, persistently waiting for a one-sided relationship, is deeply hidden in my heart.

Three months is the time when I agree with him. It is also a time limit set for yourself. Lin Luoning can wait for a long time without results, but Wen Hanyi does not allow himself to persist unnecessarily. Nothing is worth wasting his time and energy, which is his unchanging principle.

Time passed unconsciously, and even he didn't know that he could be a considerate and patient lover. No matter how plain the communication is, people will feel gentle love. Sometimes I think, what if the people around me love me deeply? When talking occasionally, Lin Luoning will also show a thinking expression. Wen Yi cold know that he is seriously thinking about his words. Change is a silent infiltration of each other, but he has been deeply involved for so many years, making giving a habit.

Watch him leave for that person, and watch him come back to himself for that person. Always in control of the heart, even because of the other party's doubts and doubts, there are emotions called anger and jealousy. The biggest change is himself.

Last five days, last night. Power and money can really get a lot. For example, Qi's turn for the better, for example, a kiss from the bully, and lingering but heartless love. Wen knows that this is the greatest fairness that a quiet and forbearing person can make.

He's gone, so is he. Life is back to the original point, and you can still be as free as before. You can still control everything calmly, and you can still find new fun at will. The only failure in memory, Wen did not care. That's their choice and the final outcome.

However, every bit of a man has never left his sight. He knew that he had returned to his hometown and became a primary school teacher. Know that he is always just a person, know that he lives calmly and indifferently. He knows everything about him, but he is just a silent bystander.

One day, he unconsciously browsed the domestic website and saw the name of that small town, and his heart suddenly jumped. It's just an introduction to a newly developed scenic spot in the travel edition, but he stared at the news for a long time. It turns out that the distance between them is not as far as expected. You can touch it if you want. Immediately booked a plane ticket to return home, Wen Yi coldly thought that it took him two years to understand this simple truth. What deadline, what let go. Those so-called principles are just excuses to cover up failure.

He wants to enjoy the present, and he wants to have a future. I used to think that they were completely different, but in fact, they were the same. Isn't the future made up of countless present? Maybe he can accompany him, step by step, out of the way he wants.

Quiet town, leisurely streets. Autumn leaves are all over the ground, and they creak when you step on them. In the twilight, the man slowly walked out of the campus, raised his head, seemed stunned, and then stood by the side of the road. A road that is not wide separates two people, and it is quiet for a while. My eyes fell straight into the man's eyes, and I suddenly felt a strange feeling in my heart.

Walking slowly, Wen smiled and whispered, "You won't forget me ..." The other person solemnly lowered his eyes, then looked up at him and smiled. This time, he will not let go.

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