Cattle's character

Looking back on the formation of her personality, Rong said that her parents loved her very much when she was a child. When she was five or six years old, she lived on the fifth floor. Her father carried her upstairs and downstairs every day and never let her take the stairs by herself. She came into contact with sage culture in May 2008. Her father washed all her socks before May. Dad also brought water into the bedroom, otherwise I wouldn't be thirsty.

"When I was eight or nine years old, I couldn't wear clothes. Dad dresses me, and dad loves me very much. But whenever I am in a bad mood, I will scold my father and say any dirty words. Once on my father's birthday, the whole family was very happy. I was in a bad mood that day, so I scolded my dad and made him feel bad. My mother sometimes makes me push her to death. She is in pain. I didn't feel anything at the time. I just think you can do whatever you want. The sooner you leave me, the better. Think about it and regret it.

I am born after 90. Because of depression, I went home and sat on the balcony, closed the curtains and listened to sad songs. I think I don't want to live anyway, and everything doesn't matter. I summed it up. Why did I do this before? Mainly because of the internet and television. There is something on the internet called non-mainstream, which induces people to self-harm, decadence and then die. Many of our children bought knives to cut their wrists together. They call it spiritual communication. I remember there were compasses in junior high school, so I used them to prick myself, and I felt quite comfortable. And many friends cry for suicide all day, feeling that life has no hope for us and no one knows us.

I didn't know until I grew up that suicide was a big unfilial move. Your parents gave birth to you and worked hard to raise you. It's unfilial of you to want to kill yourself but not repay your parents. My parents are not on good terms. They often quarrel and get divorced. Depressed, I ate stimulants with a group of classmates at school. After eating this stimulant, I can't eat, feel groggy, break out in a cold sweat and want to sleep. I know it's wrong, but I still took that pill, because it can make you forget everything in a short time, torture your parents, torture your teachers and principals, and torture everyone around me. "Finally, one day, my mother couldn't stand it. A friend who studied traditional culture told her that the child was hopeless. Mom said: Is there any saving? Her friend said, sure!