Why do I hate festivals?

Maybe you don't hate festivals, maybe you hate loneliness, or have holiday plots. Like me, I hate birthdays very much. First, I'm afraid of growing up. When I grow up, I will be one year older. In addition, after my birthday as a child, my family was very busy and hardly celebrated. It's just a home-cooked meal, so I have a photocopy in my heart and feel lonely ... I feel neglected. ...